I wish I was your favorite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world.
I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanted know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met.
Nicest Thing - Kate Nash.

Shopping is cheaper than a psychiatrist.

That's what is written on the wall of the shop I'm working at.
And I totally agree with that! Hahahah.
It's the same company as the one I was working at just that I was working in their office and now I'm working at their shop!
They've a blogshop and 2 retail outlets at PS and Haji Lane.
Go check it out www.mdscollections.com
Haha I'm like promoting for them.
Oh and them refers to my bosses who are a couple.
How cute right! 

Anyway on tuesday, Joe, my boss trained me like in less than an hour.
And I had to start working straight away, well I must say it's really boring when there's no customers at all.
Like I'd just stand in the shop and sing to the music that's playing.
Oh and thank God for twitter and twitter friends!
Cause I've been tweeting whenever I get bored, using my phone though.
I've to pay! This is why I need an IPhone!!!!!
And and so that I can play games when I'm bored.
Oh but did I mention, there's like 3 cameras in the shop!
Like seriously, I feel so awkward standing there.
Like my every move is being watched you know.
UNCOMFORTABLE TO THE MAX.
Ohoh and my meal breaks are only 20mins. Wth right!
So lunch for me is like something grabbed from 7-eleven and dinner is when I get home at almost 11.
My meal times are so screwed up, this is so so so bad.
Oh welllllllll.

Yeah so anyway, do come and visit me so I wont die of boredom.
I work from 2-9pm @ 16 Haji Lane.
Also please come, so I wont look like an idiot singing in the shop alone! HAHA.

The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good, and twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad, and no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something, and there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.

2009 whizzed past, I can't believe I finished my O's actually.
Many ups and downs but I managed to pull through.
Well it's 2010 now, and the future seems uncertain.
I know this year ain't gonna be easy at all.
It already started on a bad note, I don't think I can ever tell anyone about my family problems. 
I know everyone has family problems but mine's just, like going on forever.
And it does suck to be the youngest.
And I don't wanna burden others with my problems.
Oh welllll, I can only tell You.

I love you, I need you,
Though my world may fall, I'll never let you go.
My Saviour, my closest friend,
I will worship you until the very end.

I want a gay bestfriend, really.
I can never be bestfriends with a straight guy cause one day he'll find a girlfriend and ditch me, he'll probably spend much more time with her.
And I can't talk to him as much cause it'll only make her jealous.
Also, I can always bitch to my gay bestie about other guys and I can be sure that he'll never like me either.
I don't know, maybe I'm just spouting nonsense here.
How am I even gonna find a gay guy, much less a bestfriend?